Girl I Mean to Be

House upon the Hill / Scene: Archibald's Dressing Room

Quartet / There's a Man

Race You to the Top of the Morning

Wick

Scene: Colin's Room

Come to My Garden / Lift Me Up

Come Spirit, Come Charm

Bit of Earth (Reprise)

Scene: In the Library / Scene: Mary's Room

Hold On

Letter Song

Where in the World

How Could I Ever Know?

Finale

MARY:
I need a place where I can go,
Where I can whisper what I know,
Where I can whisper who I like
And where I go to see them.

I need a place where I can hide,
Where no one sees my life inside,
Where I can make my plans, and write them down
So I can read them.

A place where I can bid my heart be still
And it will mind me.
A place where I can go when I am lost,
And there I'll find me.

I need a place to spend the day,
Where no one says to go or stay,
Where I can take my pen and draw
The girl I mean to be.

DREAMERS:
And the master hears the whispers
On the stairways dark and still,
And the spirits speak of secrets
In the house upon the hill.

ARCHIBALD:
Last night I dreamed I walked through the maze to Lily's garden,
and saw Lily and Mary standing there. Mary standing right there
in Lily's garden. I turned away...I couldn't watch...I was afraid.

NEVILLE:
Why won't he say what he wants?
Why must he speak in dreams?
Why can't he see what he wants?
To disappear, it seems!
He should send this haunted girl far away,
Leave the house and lands to me!

ARCHIBALD:
I watched them walk around the garden,
She stood tall, grown strong and bold.
Then they turned and asked my pardon,
I couldn't speak, my heart grown cold.

NEVILLE:
Why can't he see what he wants?
He wants the past undone!
Why can't he know what he wants?
He's losing battles won
To have ever loved her,
Never known how complete a loss can be.

If she could disappear, he'd start again.
And live like other men, he could be happy then.
If she'd disappear, he could be free,
Cut off from pain and loss,
A bit like me.

ROSE:
You can't marry this Archibald! He's a gloomy,
miserable cripple who hides himself away in
that horrible house! He can't believe you love
him and neither can I!

LILY:
No one is asking for your approval, Rose!

ROSE:
Lily, if you don't care what happens to you, think
about your children. Do you want your children to
be crippled as well?

LILY:
I will marry him!

NEVILLE: ROSE:
I can arrange what he wants, Don't do this!
He's left it all to me. Don't wed him!
Now he can have what he wants, Don't bed him!
Unfetted he will be, Don't do this,
Set him free to wander Set him free
Through the world
Let him go
His lonely ways!

ARCHIBALD: LILY:
Then I longed to join them Now that
Know the peace they feel I love him
Their journey done. I will live
Then I woke once more For him
Without them, Live just to love him
Knew I must wander on and on
ROSE
I I won't forgive you!
Go Won't see you live there!!
Life to Lily, I swear
Find! I'll never see you!!

NEVILLE:
Just to disappear
Is to be free!

LILY:
Do what you will, then,
I'll never leave him!

NEVILLE:
Cut off from
Pain-cut off from
Pain
I'll help him disappear!
He'll start again!

ROSE
Cut off from pain!
Cut off from pain!
Now you must leave him! LILY:
Yes, you must leave him! How can I leave him!
I'll never leave him, Nor e'er deceive him!
Yes, you must leave him! Rose,
Lily, promise! I promised!
Yes, you must leave him, Never leave him,
You must believe!
You must believe!

NEVILLE:
Disappear!

LILY: ROSE
I will wed and bear him children. Lily, think about the children.
He will love me, love the children. Lily, think about the children.

There's A Man (Transition)
There's a man who no one sees,
There's a man who lives alone.
There's a heart that beats in silence for
The life he's never known.

NEVILLE:
When we left off last night
The hideous dragon
Had carried the maid to his cave by moonlight
He gnashed his teeth, and breathed his fire
The heath quaked, and we trembled in fear.

I said someone must save this sweet raven-haired maiden,
Though surely the cost will be steep.
So we lads all drew lots,
Our insides tied in knots,
And I won, and the rest went to sleep.

So, I picked up my staff,
And I followed the trail Of his smoke
To the mouth of the cave,
And I bid him come out,
Yea, forsooth, I did shout,
Ye fool dragon be gone or behave!

And then under my breath,
I uttered a charm said
To make the worst fiends become kind.
Knaves and knights of dire plights,
Now diminish his sights!
And it worked and the dragon went blind.

And he charged off the cliff
Howling mad and he died,
And the maiden accepted my ring.
And then you came along,
And were brave, bold, and strong,
And in thanks, every night now I sing:

Race you to the top of the morning!
Come, sit on my shoulders and ride!
Run and hide, I'll come and find you,
Climb hills to remind you,
I love you, my boy at my side!

Now, another foul dragon's appeared,
I must leave you.
He's scorching our land with his breath.
From his lair this one taunts me,
He dares me, he haunts me.
Once again, we must fight to the death!

Would to God I could stay and instead slay your dragon,
This beast who sits hunched on your back.
Would God I could wrench him away from your bed,
Or cut off or tear off his terrible head,
Could breathe out my fire on him
'Till he was dead,
Or beg him to spare you and take me instead!

As it is I must leave you in care of my brother,
The wizard, who lives on the hill,
Who has promised his art,
Will soon pierce through the heart
Of this dragon that's keeping you ill.

And I know that your mother, God bless her,
Would want you to do as he says and grow strong.
And you know that as soon as I can I'll return,
So be brave, son and know that I long
To race you to the top of the morning!
Come, sit on my shoulders and ride.
Run and hide, I'll come and find you,
Climb hills to remind you
I love you!
I love you, my boy at my side!

DICKON:
When a thing is wick, it has a life about it.
Now, maybe not a life like you and me.
But somewhere there's a single streak of green inside it.
Come, and let me show you what I mean.

When a think is wick, it has a light around it.
Maybe not a light that you can see.
But hiding down below a spark's asleep inside it,
Waiting for the right time to be seen.

You clear away the dead parts,
So the tender buds can form,
Loosen up the earth and
Let the roots get warm,
Let the roots get warm.

Come a mild day, come a warm rain,
Come a snowdrop, a-comin' up!
Come a lily, come a lilac!
Come to call,
Callin' all the rest to come and see!

MARY:
When a thing is wick,
And someone cares about it,
And comes to work each day, like you and me,
Will it grow?

DICKON:
It will!

MARY:
Then have no doubt about it,
We'll have the grandest garden ever seen!!
[Spoken]
Oh, Dickon, I want it all to be wick! Would you
come and look at it with me?

DICKON:
I'll come every day, rain or shine if you want me.
All that garden needs is for us to come wake it up!

MARY:
But, Dickon, what if we save the garden, then Uncle
Archie takes it back, or Colin wants it?

DICKON:
Ay, what a miracle that would be, gettin' a poor
crippled boy out to see his mother's garden!

[Sung]
MARY and DICKON:
You give a living thing
A little chance to grow,
That's how you will know
If she is wick, she'll grow.
So grow to greet the morning,
Leave the ground below.
When a thing is wick
It has a will to grow and grow.

MARY:
Come a mild day, come a warm rain,
Come a snowdrop, a-comin' up!
Come a lily, come a lilac!
Come to call, calling all the rest to come!

MARY and DICKON:
Calling all the rest to come!
Calling all the world to come!

DICKON:
Oh, somewhere there's single streak of green below,

MARY and DICKON:
And all through the darkest nighttime,
It's waiting for the right time.
When a thing is wick, it will grow!

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LILY:
Come to my garden,
Nestled in the hills.
There I'll keep you safe beside me.

Come to my garden.
Rest there in my arms.
There I'll see you
Safely grown and on your way.

Stay there in the garden,
Where love grows free and wild.
Come to my garden.
Come, sweet child.

COLIN:
Lift me up and lead me to the garden,
Where life begins anew.
Where I'll find you,
And I'll find you love me too.
LILY:
Lift me up and lead me to the garden Come to my garden,
Where life begins anew Rest there in my arms.
Where I'll tell you, There I'll
where I'll show you See you safely grown
A new life, I will live for you. And on your way.

I shall see you in the garden, I shall see you in my garden,
Where spring will come and stay. Where love grows free and wild.
Lift me up and lead me to the garden. Come to my garden,
Come, sweet day! Come, sweet day!

MARY:
Come spirit, come charm,
Come days that are warm,
Come magical spell,
Come help him get well.

DICKON:
Come spirit, come charm,
Come days that are warm,
Come magical spell,
Come help him get well.

MARTHA, DICKON, LILY AND DREAMERS:
Spirits are above, charms aloft on high!
Sweep away the storm comin' 'cross the sky!
See the rising sun, bid the breeze to fall,
Bid the robins sing, bid the roses grow!

ALL:
Come spirit, come charm,
Come days that are warm,
Come magical spell,
Come help him get well.
Come, come spirit, come charm,
Come magical spell
Come help him get well.

ALBERT:
A bit of earth,

LILY:
A bit of earth,

ALBERT: ROSE
A drop of dew, A bit of earth
A single stem begins to rise.

ROSE and LILY:
Begins to rise.

ALBERT:
That bit of earth
Is pushed away, the flowers bloom
Before our eyes.

ROSE and LILY:
Before our eyes.

ALBERT:
For in the earth,
The charm's at work,
The word is past,
The days are warm.

LILY:
The days are warm.

ROSE:
The days are warm.

ALBERT:
Unfold and grown,
The winter's past,

ALBERT and LILY:
We're free from harm.

ROSE:
We're free from harm.

ALBERT, ROSE and LILY:
A bit of earth,
A bit of earth.

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MARTHA:
What you've got to do is
Finish what you have begun,
I don't know just how,
But it's not over 'til you've won!

When you see the storm is coming,
See the lightning part the skies,
It's too late to run-
There's terror in your eyes!
What you do then is remember
This old thing you heard me say:
"It's the storm, not you,
That's bound to blow away."

Hold on,
Hold on to someone standing by.
Hold on.
Don't even ask how long or why!
Child, hold on to what you know is true,
Hold on 'til you get through.
Child, oh child!
Hold on!

When you feel your heart is poundin',
Fear a devil's at your door.
There's no place to hide-
You're frozen to the floor!
What you do then is you force yourself
To wake up, and you say:
"It's this dream, not me,
that's bound to go away."

Hold on,
Hold on, the night will soon be by.
Hold on,
Until there's nothing left to try.
Child, hold on, There's angels on their way!
Hold on and hear them say,
"Child, oh child!"

And it doesn't even matter
If the danger and the doom
Come from up above or down below,
Or just come flying
At you from across the room!

When you see a man who's raging,
And he's jealous and he fears
That you've walked through walls
He's hid behind for years.
What you do then is you tell yourself to wait it out
And say it's this day, not me,
That's bound to go away.

Child, oh hold on.
It's this day, not you,
That's bound to go away!

MARY:
D-E-A-R Uncle Archie,
How are you?
I'm fine. Everybody else is too.
Please come home.

ARCHIBALD:
Home.
I have no home.

MARY:
Martha says that you're in Paris.

ARCHIBALD:
It's a house, child.

MARY:
Is that very far away?

ARCHIBALD:
It's just a house,

MARY:
Do they have nice girls and boys there?

ARCHIBALD:
And I can't get far enough away from it.

MARY:
Please come home.

MARTHA:
Now, just sign it.

MARY:
Should I say that Colin's well now?

ARCHIBALD:
Streets of Paris, like a maze.

MARY:
Should I say that Doctor Craven...

ARCHIBALD:
Sleepless nights and aimless days.

MARTHA:
I think that what you have is good.
Let's get it posted on its way.
He'll rush home, then you can tell
Him all the rest you have to say.

MARY:
Oh, kind sir, Uncle Archie, ARCHIBALD:
Can't forget, can't eat,
I wish that you could see Or sleep, or live.
When you come in to the garden.
Please come home.

ARCHIBALD:
Can't forgive.

MARY:
Yours truly?

MARTHA:
Well, maybe . . .

MARY:
Sincerely?

MARTHA:
How's about...

MARY:
Your friend, Mary.

ARCHIBALD:
Now I see you in the window
Of a carraige, then a train.
Still my mind cannot accept that
In your grave you must remain.
I hear your voice then turn and
See a stranger's form and face.
Must I wander on tormented
Place to place to place to place!

Where can I go that you won't find me?
Why can't I find a place to hide?
Why do you have to chase me, haunt me?
Every step there beside me.

Where in the world, tell me, where in the world
Can I live without your love?
Why on the earth, tell me why on the earth
Should I stay now that you are gone?
Why did I have to meet you, love you?
Why can't I rid you from my mind?
Why did you have to want me?
Won't you let me put my life behind me?

How in the world, tell me how in the world
Can I live without your love?
Why on the earth, tell me, why on the earth
Should I stay now that you are gone?
Now that you are...

[spoken]
Lily, is that you?

LILY:
How could I know I would have to leave you?
How could I know I would hurt you so?
You were the one I was born to love!
Oh, how could I ever know?
How could I ever know?

How can I say to go on without me?
How, when I know you still need me so?
How can I say not to dream about me?
How could I ever know?
How could I ever know?

Forgive me.
Can you forgive me
And hold me in your heart,
And find some new way to love me
Now that we're apart?
How could I know I would never hold you?
Never again in this world, but oh,
Sure as you breathe, I am there inside you,
How could I ever know?
How could I ever know?

ARCHIBALD:
How can I hope to go on without you?
How can I know where you'd have me go?
How can I bear not to dream about you?
Oh, how can I let you go?

LILY:
How could I ever know?

ARCHIBALD:
All I need...

LILY:
Is there in the garden!

ARCHIBALD:
All I would ask...

LILY:
Is care for the child of our love!
Come, go with me, safe I will keep you.

ARCHIBALD:
Where you would lead me,
There I would,

LILY:
There I would, there we would,

ARCHIBALD and LILY:
There we will go.
Oh! How could I know?
Tell me how could I know?
Never to know you would ever leave me!
How could we know?

LILY:
How could I ever know?

[Spoken]
COLIN:
Mary, what is it?

MARTHA:
Mary, come quickly!

MARY:
Wait 'till you see it!!

COLIN:
Mary, what is it?

MARY:
It's spring!

COLIN:
But where did it come from?

MARTHA:
From all your hard work, where do you think?

COLIN:
Mary, look at the roses!

MARY:
There are fountains of them!

COLIN:
Mary, Mary, quite contrary,
How does your garden grow?

MARY:
Colin! That's not fair!

NEVILLE:
Archie, why didn't you cable us you were coming?

ARCHIBALD:
I didn't know myself, Neville.
What on earth is all that noise?

COLIN:
Oh, no, you don't! I'm lots faster than you are!

MARY:
Colin Craven, not so fast!

NEVILLE:
Mary Lennox!!

COLIN:
Father?

ARCHIBALD:
Oh, Colin!

COLIN:
Look at me, Father! I'm well!

ARCHIBALD:
Oh, Colin, my fine, brave boy!
Can you ever forgive me?

COLIN:
It was the garden that did it, Father.
And Mary, and Dickon, and Martha.
Some kind of charm, it came right out of the ground!

ARCHIBALD:
Yes? Oh, Colin. Colin, look at you!

COLIN:
It was Ben that kept the garden alive, Father, until...

BEN:
I knew it was against your orders sir, but I...

COLIN:
And it was Dickon, who taught us how...

ARCHIBALD:
Yes, I can just imagine.
Dickon, if there is ever anything we can do...

MARTHA:
Sir, what is to become of our Mary?

ALBERT:
[Sings]
Clusters of crocus

ARCHIBALD:
Why, Mary, I'd nearly forgotten you in all this.

MARY:
It's hard to remember everybody, sir.

ARCHIBALD:
No, it isn't. Three isn't very many people at all.
I should be able to remember three people quite easily!

MARY:
Would I be one of them?

ARCHIBALD:
Mary Lennox, for as long as you will have us, we are yours,
Colin and I, and this is your home, and this, my lovely child,
is your garden!

DREAMERS:
[Sing, fading]
Come to my garden, nestled in the hill.
There I'll keep you safe beside me.
Come to my garden. Rest there in my arms.
There I'll see you safely grown

ALBERT and LILY:
And on your way.
Stay here in the garden,
As days grow long and mild.

LILY:
Come to my garden,
come, sweet child.

The Secret Garden (ACT 1)
The Secret Garden (ACT 2)